So, afer five years of searching… I’m back where I started…

I feel like shit.

1. Terry’s family was so nice and so excited… I feel bad about their disappointment… They’re amazing and I’ll keep in touch… but my search continues…

2. I’m pretty much back to square one.

Who knows how long this will take… another five years? Another fifty?

I feel like everytime I get my hopes up, they just get crushed.


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I am Samantha. I am twenty years old, and have a gorgeous little girl, and a baby boy who I am expecting in May. I am married to my best friend in the entire world. I am a full time student, and am torn between pursuing a career as a midwife, or going to medical school to become an obstetrician.

2 thoughts on “Never”

  1. I am so sorry. I have been following this from the BHB on BBC. I was rooting for you. Don’t give up hope. You are an amazing person and you know you will get through this. I searched for my birthparents for many years….it takes time. What we find at the end doesn’t change who we are.

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